I can write on paper: Archive

I want to enjoy life, I always feel like I am hiding behind a faux smile.

May 30th

i need to fix the lack of self confidence cause i always feel like my confidant is going to one day stop listening/talking to me because all i do is complain

May 30th

wow i have really low self confidence

May 30th

I seriously feel like all i ever do is complain about my family.I never actually do anything about it. All I want is a vacation away from them so i can figure things about and not have to worry about them. Why is it so hard to do that? I just want even a week away from them. that’s all. I would love a couple of weeks but who would want me around that long?

May 30th

i don’t know why i bother to care about anything. All it ever does is bite me in the ass. I just want to feel something other than apathy and bitterness

May 29th

I always wonder why no one ever asks me out. I’ve had plenty of guys show interest but when I show interest back, everything stops. No calls, texts anything and next thing I know they are in a relationship with some skinny blonde chick from Alpha Beta Alpha. I don’t understand what exactly is wrong with me that guys don’t find worth the effort. I am always the friend and never...

May 25th

I am done with this. You buy me a dvd and then change your mind and when I assume that you stuck with the original plan you get angry. Then when you say I can have the pizza you change your mind. So I put it pack then you get angry, make up your fucking mind

May 8th

I am beyond pissed. I don’t understand what she wants from me. She tells me she is going to buy me a dvd and then decides she wants to keep it. Then gets mad at me when I leave her room to study FOR A FUCKING FINAL THAT IS TOMORROW

May 7th

i may not be able to go to summer school

May 3rd

for the love of god SHOOT ME DEAD

May 1st

mom is upset about the paper and I am not sure what to do.

Apr 29th

5 days of school. That’s it before finals. I want to cry. I actually feel sad about leaving. Mostly the few friends I made.

Apr 28th

I literally hate everyone right now

Apr 28th

f i u t c k

Apr 27th

I feel like I want to throw up and not in a nauseous kinda way

Apr 27th

I am so sick of people who are supposed to be my family treating me like shit

Apr 26th

Lately things have been going good. I’m scared that it’ll stop

Apr 25th

I haven’t told my mom yet about Texas. Mainly because I am afraid it isn’t real. I want it to be real. Good things don’t happen to me often and this feels like a good thing. When it gets closer or I know for sure, I’ll tell her. I have given her a few hints but nothing definitive

Apr 25th

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I HATE feeling so incredibly lonely all the fucking time. it sucks

Apr 20th

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Well I have anemia

Apr 19th

Apr 18th

I feel like I am being ignored by everyone

Apr 18th

Watch

Apr 1st

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this is now a personal blog

Mar 5th